So begins chapter 10 in a 306-page treatise on suicide that was written and published online by a Michigan State University student who recently took his own life.
Patrick Kegan Cochrane, a senior from Laramie, Wyoming, wrote in his last post on Facebook that anyone who loved him should read that chapter in his book that he published on a blog — which also included 21 good-bye letters to family and friends. He even wrote a letter to the police officer who would find his body April 13 near Baker Woodlot on south campus and also uploaded several videos to YouTube.
“Across the world are people with near unimaginably horrible lives,” Cochrane wrote. “How dare I sit here feeling bad when they actually have good reason to feel bad about their lives! I hate myself for my self-pitying disposition. But I am so weak. Where others can handle so much stress in their lives, I can handle so little.”
Homicides land on the front page, but every year, three times more people kill themselves. It’s an issue that a growing chorus of students are talking about on college campuses, where suicide is the second-most common cause of death and mental health is a top concern, along with sexual assault, diversity and excessive drinking.